Dreams

He wakes up very early. Very early.

And so he sleeps early too. Today he made the announcement at 9:30, but I managed to get bedtime conversation with him until 10:30. I don't mind. He's beside me when I fall asleep, even if no matter how dark it is outside when i wake up and hopefully reach my hand to the other side of the bed there's only blankets. 

The thing is, he likes to fall asleep with me beside him and he's been asking for me to join him with such a sad look on his face. I would love to make him happy, but I was not blessed with the ability to roll over and just be asleep like he was. If I go to bed when I'm not tired I will stay awake for hours trying to fall asleep. Alas, he continues to ask. So we compromise. Sometimes I lie there as he falls asleep. Sometimes I do this, and type on my computer while he's off dreaming.

I sure wish he'd be there when I wake up though. At least we have Sundays.

it's snowing outside.

WE ARE ENGAGED!

Yeah. You know what? I was reading the last couple posts I wrote and nope, fuck it. I spent most of the Christmas holidays trying not to cause too much squealing as I announced that the boyfriend and I are engaged and look at my pretty ring, and omg I love it so much. I'm not big on being the centre of attention so I told people quietly, like it was you know, no big deal and hey, how was your Christmas? But I'm pretty fucking exciting about it so here internets, I'm gonna yell now.


WE ARE IN LOVE AND WE'RE GETTING MARRIED!

obnoxious? Oh well, suck it internet. I deserved that.

Yipee!

And they're off!

We stuck our baby toes into the water of wedding planning this week. For the most part, it was alright. But i feel like we're embarking upon the amazing race of venue hunting. There are way more details involved in choosing a venue than I imagined, and i'm pretty sure we don't know the half of it yet. Plating fees, corking fees, minimums and "you're getting kicked out now" hours. One place was going to charge us $33 if we had music? And if we fancy pants wanted to dance to that music it was going to be $66?! Just, why?

Christmas Day

I am filled with too much turkey. I have swum in oceans of wrapping paper. I have been surrounded with smiles and laughter and love. It's Christmas. I still believe in Santa. There is absolutely some kind of Christmas magic that happens on this day.

And this year, it arrived in a very special way, at the bottom of a Christmas stocking and in the eyes of the man I love. It is sparkling at me in the corner of my eye as I type. It is a symbol of our commitment to each other, and the next steps in the journey we are taking together. It fits me perfectly, as does my new role of fiance, prometida. We are engaged to be married and nothing has ever felt so natural. It's a bit like finding something you didn't know you were missing. With it, I feel more at home than I ever did without it.

Still, I find myself constantly surprised by a sparkle out of the corner of my eye, or when I glimpse it in the mirror. It's been less than 24 hours and I'm still marvelling at the change. When I see my reflection, it's a bit like looking at someone else. I wonder who that happy, grown up looking woman is, and I'm tickled to realize that it's me. 

It's a wonderful day. Merry Christmas everybody.

christmas goodness

Have you ever wondered how it's possible to get so much satisfaction out a full cupboard? I opened my cupboards today to find them filled with christmas goodies and snacks. After feeling like mother hubbard all exam season, this is a wonderful treat.

We have been decorating for Christmas. The Christmas tree is up, which looks a little different this year but I love it so much.

I hope you're all having a wonderful Christmas season and enjoying the company of loved ones.

welcome winter. i am not ready for you.

umm, it's cold here. And not a good time to have single pane windows. Check out the inside of my bedroom window.

 

That's my kitchen window. There's no way that thing's opening.

So, yep. Let's all cross our fingers for a bit of a thaw shall we?

gypsy love

How, I wish I could pull off this kind of style. Since our trip to Hornby Island this summer, i am in love with the hippie, nature-child life. Anyways, i love this photo. What an adorable engagement pic. You can see it all here.

happy thoughts

this video is so so so sweet. And apparently much needed around here. I am stuck at the computer today writing a 3000 word paper on an ill-defined topic and it's due on Tuesday. I just went to visit my boyfriend in the bedroom where he's taken shelter from my ticky typing and odd growling noises. He wrote me a song on his guitar which he calls "when my girlfriend is grumpy on Sunday mornings".  Ah yes. There's nothing I'd like to do more than prove him wrong but this paper isn't going away. Ah, well, I enjoyed the rest of my weekend.

Be prepared to smile.


Postcards From Italy from ForYouLoveMe on Vimeo.

One flew over

Recently I have been feeling a bit, well, shall we say antsy. I have been prone to sudden, yet subtle, pouty mood swings in which my subconscious begins to ponder whether or not the boyfriend really loves me as much as he says he does. Meanwhile, my conscious-self tries to hide the crazy from the boyfriend while also trying to elicit soothing, loving gestures from him to soothe the angst of my subconscious. Since there is nothing i am more sure of in this world than the fact that we love each other like shooting stars and rainbows, this terrible display of ridiculousness has been a bit frustrating.

The trouble is, I don't like waiting, and I don't like not knowing how much longer I have to wait. I just want to tell people already and shout from the rooftops that WE ARE IN LOOOVE!!!*&#^!%!!!!

So today, I tried to have a conversation without having a conversation and it ended like this:

him: well, we'd kind of lose the surprise.

me: yeah, but it's happening?

him: it's happening.

And now I can wait, happily, hopefully non-crazily, until it really happens.

weddings i like

It's been a while since I saw a wedding that made me pause and soak it in, then look at it all over again. But this one has a sweet simple charm about it. And it's in Vancouver! I've actually been to this wedding venue before. Enjoy...